the most complicated, and if not, most painful thing someone can ever experience.
i miss being in a relationship; truth is, words cannot describe how i feel about you in the most honest and sincerest way. 

It seems appropriate to. What a rocky start to the new year. Dear god all of these people dying within 10 days of 2011…

I forgot I even had a tumblr. I guess getting caught up in the midst of summer can be a good thing. There are too many things to write about over a 4 month (almost) period. However, a recapping July is a start.

     July: 

• The 4th of July was great. I finally got to watch fireworks in Reno in what, three years? Although I must say Tumbleweed’s fireworks (it’s some sort of recreation park) were much better than Reno’s fireworks.

• I got to hang out hang out with Skye and Madison. We all went to Nevada Beach in South Lake Tahoe. Definitely the highlight of the month.

• My relationship with my Boobear had its ups and downs.

     August is finally here. It so far is a rocky time during an important transition in life.

Orientation at San Diego State was amazing to say the least. I met a few new people and the kids in San Diego seem nicer than the kids here in Reno. The campus is huge…I got lost a few times. The Dean of Nursing…something Nicodermus made the nursing program intimidating. It was quite funny to see how many guys were at the Nursing orientation that day. Only four. Yeah, four guys including me. My San Diego State Aztec ID card is just…how do I put this? Sad? I look as if I were a ghost with grand almond eyes and floating lips. I’d rather not look at it… I got $15,606 in financial aid. The school’s about $22,000 a year. Not bad at all. I’m stoked to take psychology. I’ve always wanted to learn about human behavior and whatever’s in my textbook. Biology…for a third year (and taking AP Biology as a Senior didn’t help) again? Not really looking forward to that. I’ll have a good amount of knowledge about what to expect. Move out day is August 25! I’m excited to move to a city with a population of +1.3 million and go to the beach frequently :). I believe I’m too prepared for college because I got all of my papers, supplies, and dorm shit organized a month ahead. I cannot wait to hang out with Noelle, Czarinah, Taylor, Ryan, and Yolanda! Going to Club Dance Arena (it’s a renown dance club in Hollywood) Taylor will be hella fun!

Piercings:

So I ordered this 12g Mother of Pearl septum pincher. The diameter between the two ends was so small I couldn’t even put the ends between the cartilage. Sanding it down wasn’t a problem. It was just fitting the damn fucker through my nose. Since it’s organic jewelry, it’s custom made and won’t be the same size as every other Mother of Pearl septum pincher. I had to lube it up with emu oil (comes from the fat of an emu) and shove it through my nose. The pain was bearable…if you like 7 hours of it. Tylenol is helpful in these type of situations. My nose is almost done healing…it’s been three or four weeks. I have a funky smell though due to dead skin cells and body secretions. Don’t worry, I clean it everyday.

it’s week two of spring break and i’m not really digging the whole “crank out the homework and let’s stay cooped up in your home”. i have to admit, spring break this year has been better than the year before. shit, i could go on. the highlight of my spring break so far has been eating. going to red robin almost every day and eating grilled cheese is awesome, although i think some of the waiters and greeters are becoming ill of my presence. april 9 was the first anniversary of my grandma that passed away. it was a sad fucking day. to be continued…i’m too tired.

i must say, i never thought i would ever sign up for a tumblr. but i did. i feel like this a good way for a person to see my thoughts as they are, without any premature judgements. oh, and whoever thought that spring officially began today? i forgot.